No matter how strong a person seems to be, they are not exempt from having to wrestle with tough decisions. Prayerfully grace leads the way.
lyrics
Scars
I'm leaving, gotta say peace
It's almost too hard to release
All the family I've built here...it cuts deep
But remember that I'm leaving more than guilt here
It's a complicated dance, and I'm two left shoes
I was just in my black tie wit two step shoes
Bracing for the backlash- take a deep breath
I know in my heart I gotta take these steps
They won't understand, I'm just have to take it
Smile when I see em, I'm gon have to fake it
Yeah it hurts when you leaving a church
And you can't look back when you starting your search
And I know it's not a building
But the way ppl treat you, you get caught up in the feeling
Picking up the pieces with the Scriptures
Talkin with my real friends, who don't treat me like I'm different
Those relationships came with some conditions
On every week attendance and surface level friendships
Truth is, you ain't wanna leave
Your heart is torn up about it, you been tryna grieve
Your wife lookin at you, you still tryna lead
Comfort zone is gone, you just tryna breathe
I'm talkin like its you, when really bro its me
Been tryna work this out, it's hard for you to see
All the bitterness I'm fighting, feel like I'm goin crazy
Attacks on my mind, never knew I was this angry
I know my best, best efforts were broken
But I'm sick of people questioning my motives
Told me buy in, I bought a hundred shares
I pull out and now I get judgmental stares
Yeah I see the snares, yeah I know I'm tripping
But He catch me when I fall, like listen
You just followed orders, now I'm ordering your footprints
Imma grant you courage, trust me it's a good gift
I saw all your efforts, you just keep praying
Just keep Loving mercy, I'mma send you ravens
I'm gon show you church, you gon see my Body
Ain't nobody perfect, but I make em godly
You can still Love em, even from a distance
You wont lose nothing, my grace is sufficient
I been tryna trust You
I been tryna trust You
So even if its just You
Your grace is always been sufficient
credits
from The Straw Man,
released November 28, 2013
OSYM Beats
Beauty and the Beast at the very beginning of the track, then a Christ-integrated message to top it all off. Nostalgic and Beautiful. To add more to the pie, the song and what it relates to is perfectly fitting for the theme of beauty in the midst of beastliness. It's just dope.
Thank God for this song. Donovan Lewis